Hello, everyone who may still look at this very much forgotten deviant art page. Summer has been good. It's been one lazy fucking summer, but I do community service every now and then, so its all good. I'm practicing my stretching alot, so by the time some of you will see me like next year or something, I'll look like a mother fucking....stretchy thing.

Let's see....what has the summer brought...oh! I beat Suikoden V. It was a cool game, but number 2 still kicks its ass. Oh, and I got back into pokemon games. It's been taking up quite a bit of my time. Oh, and also recently the summer has been giving me really shitty sleep! Ohmy, that one is a really sucky one. It may explain my odd behavior and excessive usage of words like FUCK and SHIT and BITCH and some cases of linking those words together in the same phrases.

Yeah...right now I'm in a state of not wanting to do things. Things that usually drive me or give me good feelings aren't doing anything right now. Perhaps I'm really fucking hot from being in the sun tearing apart some boxes. Yeah....that may be it. Oh, and I meant hot as in the molecules in my body are moving faster, to a point where it is uncomfortable....not hot as in I'm quite sexy...though some may say that is so. Fwo fwo fwo!

Don't you hate the feeling when you like someone and then you lose the ability to feel good at the end of the day? Oh...and perhaps you may feel that losing the ability to feel good about yourself sucks too. Yeah...like you are a little less than others or less desirable because you don't do something....? I'm really not feeling good right now...and just like the time I threw a fucking fit in my WC house after a small thing (not getting a ticket to something) this is perhaps a little indication that I have been angry for awhile.....fucking mad and holding it inside.

What the fuck am I mad about? I'm not sure....I need some counseling about this shit, but I don't have anyone to turn to at this moment.

Perhaps I should get into meditation again...or invest on some goddamn sleeping pills or some fucking root that should make me sleepy....I don't know what it's called, it was in the movie Fight Club.

Well anyway, till the next time I want to bitch and rant. I hope this was entertaining and if you read my whole fucking whiny thing, thank you for your time.

Love
-Mark deVera that one guy you probably knew at some point

P.S. Oh yeah, you may have noticed I deleted all of my pictures. Yeah, it was about time that I fully realized that I don't like my fucking ugly art. I am not proud of it at all and never really felt a full achievement. My art portfolios and shit sit in my garage where I may one day look back at them or feed them to a hungry fire.